hung over.... life has been a little too epic and exciting as of late.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009

i havent been saving images to my desktop, and therefore, my sad, little, blog, has been short on them. heres an image by kore flatmo that justin made me save for him. im still kind of sick. my head feels all floaty, but the neti pot helps a lot.
im really unmotivated though.... and sleepy. i am really sick of being sick. i just want to be healthy for an extended period of time.
blah.
Friday, February 13, 2009
i have slimmed my blog reading way down, and imported them all into google reader, so i dont have to worry about losing links. i have also been fastidiously saving my images to my i heart it account, which saves A LOT of space. i wish more of my friends would get heart accounts... hint, hint. i still have lots of files on my computer that i am slowly filtering through....
okay. tattoo time.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
henry got his parts snipped yesterday. i am supposed to keep him from playing for a week.... which is going to be impossible.
i got my first issue of martha stewart living today. very exciting.
ugh. im going to go lay down....
Sunday, January 25, 2009
a brief overview of my trip itinerary:
1130ish thursday: arrive in portland maine, cab over to borders, wait for amy to pick me up. drink coffee, start new, exciting drawing. see fifty-foot snowbank.
1230: head back to the dorms. stuff myself with free cafeteria food. soak up free internet. attempt to nap.
230: finally meet trisha. hang on her giant bed. drink dunkin donuts coffee.
500: head to gardiner. drop my stuff off at my brothers.
600: visiting hours at the funeral home. creepy open casket that i am not emotionally prepared to deal with. reconnect with many old faces.
8:00 back to bros. pizza and many many beers.
friday
1100: funeral. really amazing. so many good stories.... "nothings wrong"
1230: beers at the depot. the depot was a total sleezebar when i lived in gardiner a million years ago, so i was really excited to go there, and definitely feeling like a beer was necessary before heading to the family gathering. i was really disappointed to find that they had completely remodeled, and was bright, cute, and comfortable.
100: family gathering at my aunts. lots of funny stories and drunk family.
300: head out to amys mom farm in whitefield. played with baby cow, bert and kitty, the hog.
500: head back to portland. order really tasty food. lay around in dorm.
900: downtown portland. empire/whiteheart. beers. hanging with my cousin amanda. some dancing. suprising amount of cute people.
1230: sleep
saturday
1000: 158. fresh bagels. back to gardiner.
1100: devons basketball game.
1200: family time at bros. beers.
200: family dinner at longhorn. so many cheesefries.
500: back to portland. lazy night. internet.
sunday
800: head to airport, find out flight is cancelled. hang in airport til 1130 flight. overcharged for wireless internet service.
...................... im ready to be home. eat tasty food with j. hang with my doggies.
i uploaded a ton of photos to my flickr, and will add more later.
Friday, January 16, 2009
i have been tattooing a ton, and can already recognize vast improvements in my work and my confidence level.
i have been drawing and painting everyday.
i have been laughing a lot, and not crying at all.
this place makes me feel wanted and valued, and thats awesome... and its what i deserve.
in other news, the piercing apprentice, and one of my all time favs, liza, pierced my nose. it hurts a little, and it makes me want to sneeze a lot.
i also bought hand-carved turquoise 0 gauge hanging earrings. they are amazing.
i watched the documentary "stolen" from netflix and it was pretty interesting. it was about the art robbery at the isabella gardner museum in boston. also the jardowosky documentary.... i feel like i need to watch that 50 more times to fully absorb it though.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Friday, January 09, 2009
i now have internets at my house! i am very excited... mostly because now i can make thorough use of my netflix "watch instant" option. this weekend is busy for me, and i mostly want to stay inside and draw/paint.
i finished my first watercolor painting yesterday. its a really fast process, but definitely didnt come out as tightly executed as i wouldve liked.
i got a "grown-up" purse from urban, which i refer to as such because its the first purse ive ever owned that cost me more than $20.
i have to work at urban tonight, and i am feeling super lazy. hopefully it will be busy and there will be fun people.
i shouldnt have eaten that choco-pudding cup. fake sugar tastes like crack.
ok. bye
Monday, January 05, 2009
i heart 2009
josh came to visit!
i was working a ton at urban outfitters over the holidays.
i got a NEW tattoo job!!!!
im super stoked to be working at river city now! i am tattooing and making money and paying bills, and its all very exciting!
ok.bye
Saturday, December 20, 2008
ketchup.
im not really sure what my schedule will be after the holidays, i know a lot of people are trying to get scheduled, so ill try to get on that. i want to take a nap. i am passed the point of caffeine helping anymore.... and i have to be at the mall at 8am tomorrow morning. normally, i am a total xmas person..... blah-humbug.
Friday, December 12, 2008
started working part time at urban outfitters... i am official professional t-shirt folder.
justin left red dragon.
j and i got electric toothbrushes... they tickle.
netflix finally released the "watch instantly" option for macs.
watched "el topo"
watched the new david lynch documentary "lynch" (which is completely fucking amazing, and a beautiful tribute to him)
dropped off stuff to "elderly friends of virginia" for gift baskets, and was matched with my new elder friend alma, who im super stoked to start hanging out with!
knitting
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
these wool felted bangle bracelets are pretty amazing too. ontheround
does anyone know any cool "how-to" craft blogs? i would like to learn to do needle felting.... also, i finally got a call back for a job interview.... urban outfitters. i need to get a second job so i can turn on my heat already... it was freaking 26 degrees out last night!
so money for me, like many, many, others, will be tight this xmas.... which is why i am making the majority of my gifts... (hopefully ill have some photos to post soo. i have been a busy little bee!) however, if i had money, id probably buy amy some cool lichen stuff from etsy shop ottoman
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
making vintage christmas gifts
ninetendo ds cooking games
vintage decorating books
my new bed (which is actually in chocolate, but they only had the white posted online)
*side note: the mattress sits directly on slats and the frame doesnt require a box spring, it is the most comfortable thing ever. i am a complete insomniac, and since i started sleeping on this bed i have been sleeping so well. i dont think i can ever go back to a regular bed!
thrifting
xmas
i heart it
hopefully all my friends/minions/fans/fellow bloggers will join because i want to see what other people are looking at.
a.
ps. my "i heart it" sn is tinypalpitation (as usual)
Saturday, November 15, 2008
fuuuuuuuuck
The reason I am talking about this full moon now is that you know that your attention will be pulled in another direction on that Friday, and your emotions will be stirred up through the weekend, December 13-14. That's a popular weekend to shop, ship, and decorate the house, but I feel whatever comes up this weekend will cause those holiday activities to slide. If you have children depending on you to talk to Santa about getting certain presents for them, you may find it hard to get through to Santa, if you catch my meaning. This is why I ask you to shop in November, when you have everything going for you, and finish up your shopping, wrapping, and shipping no later than December 9. If you put up a Christmas tree, I would like you to have it up by December 9 if possible, too.
After the full moon arrives December 12 plus or minus three days, you will be preoccupied, and by the time you regain your balance it will be December 20 or so, which is really late! Why pay high shipping costs for packages you couldn't ship earlier? Get ready for the holiday in November, and you will be SO glad you did. This year the stores will have plenty of sales, so you will not miss out on those. Also, stores will have lower inventory than usual, so you won't be disappointed with your selection in November."
awesome
understatement of the century..... first line of this months horoscope. you have to laugh a little.
so im not a real astrology devotee or anything... usually i casually turn to it when life is in the crapper, and i need a little hope.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
flop monster. one of her many nicknames. after breakfast she would pass out hard and it was always hard to get her to get up and into her crate. most mornings one of us would have to carry her lifeless body all flopped over, limbs dangling, and put her into her crate. we always enjoyed how comfortable she was with us.
porky had great folds. they were itchy and she would dive bomb the carpet and drag her face against it to scratch them. she usually smelled like corn chips and her breath smelled like an asthma inhaler. it might sound morbid, but this is exactly what she looked like when she died, all flopped over, relaxed, jowls all smushed. i dont know if i will ever get over her loss.
rest in peace sweet pup
yesterday i lost one of the things that has defined me for the past three years, and it has been one of the most painful things i have even been through. porkchop had begun to suffer from a liver problem which caused her system to overload with ammonia, which caused her neurological problems. it was painful to see her struggle, and for as much as i wanted to keep her in my life, i had to sacrifice my needs for the benefit of hers.
i will miss her forever.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
the vets seem pretty convinced that porky has a neurological disorder like pug encephalitis, and have already told me that i need to be rational and consider her quality of life over our emotional attachment. its absolutely heartbreaking. we are going to the critical care facility tomorrow, and hopefully they will be able to give me a more certain idea of exactly what is wrong with her.
blah.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
how is it possible that someone i love for three days has already expired. she was only 35. meh. that breaks my heart a little.
nagi noda. david lachapelle. michel gondry. bjork. keiko miyata. inka essenhigh.
more importantly she was telling me that her car gotten broken into on halloween, and guess what they took..... FRIED CHICKEN!!!!
amazing!
for ames
no country for old men
eternal sunshine of a spotless mind
march of the penguins (doc)
pans labyrinth
bukowski: born into this (doc)
capturing the friedmans (doc)
a clockwork orange
dexter season one
eagle vs shark
the king of kong (doc)
rushmore
in the realms of the unreal (doc)
umm... i guess thats all for now... ill post more as i come across them.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
gots:
ceremony location
reception location
dress
shrug
food
dj
bouttonierre
ring pillow
birdcage
needs:
underpinnings
groom/groomsmen attire
wedding party attire (moh, flower girl, ring bearer)
invitation design/paper supply
wedding rings
branches
mason jars
candles
feathers
shoes
transportation
bouquet
bakery goods
alcohol
music playlists
wedding songs
guest list
engagement photo/announcement
save the date
blah... i dont feel like dealing with any of this..... maybe ill put it off til the beginning of the year.
bhg - terra
ive been slowly going through my giant collection of vintage books... found this gem in a better homes and gardens houseplants book.
bhg - decorations
still trying to get the hang of this whole "blog this" phenom. anyone know how to blog more than one image?
bhg - pointy wreath
i uploaded a huge collection of uploaded images from a better homes and gardens diy book that i thrifted...
netflix-ster
the art of romare bearden
mr. bing and le art noveau
art 21 season 4... (i was kind of disappointed in this. its a lot of performance and conceptual sculpture... barely any painting)
there is an "ecology" episode that was pretty interesting. i particularly enjoyedmark dion's living sculpture.
top ten:
e2: design: season 1 (green building designs)
art 21: season 1&2 disc 2
jc levendecker (golden age illustrator)
heavy metal parking lot (tailgating at judas priest circa 1986)
life and work of dr hunter s. thompson
spirited away (miyazaki)
the films of ray and charles eames
samurai fiction
love and pop
alex grey: the chapel of sacred mirrors
im kind of stoked on winter, shorter days, less social obligations, and more time indoors. ive been watching tons of movies and docs. i made a drawing for a new painting, so im pretty stoked about that. i finally got around to watching holy mountain which is a definite must see for all artists... completely inspiring. matthew barney's creamaster, with 70s flair. brilliant.
i will have a huge flickr post later today....
Saturday, November 01, 2008
JAPANORAMA!!!!!!!!!
i have been watching these episodes all day. its a nice break on a hungover crappy saturday.
last night was lots of fun. it was really awesome to see everyone get really into dressing up....
i was a dead jazzercizer
jess was a dead bike messenger
drew was amish
susan was a boxing nun
don was a little kid in astro-jammies complete w little motor bike
zack was in nothing but long johns and a tiger mask
dana was a bunny mummy
nick was a dead confederate soldier
carolyn was the cutest indian... and her friends were snow white and gwen stefani
chris put on a ridiculous long hair wig and bandana and was really mouthy and frisky all night.
umm... it was good times. dana's party was lots of fun, good music, jello shooters, fire pit, etc... it was fun to finally meet a lot of the newport news kids i have heard so much about.
umm... okay...bye
junko mizuno on japan-o-rama
ps. how do i embed you tube files? why dont they give me that code? lame.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Hummingbird Gourd Peru
my guess is that this is a tattooed gourd. its so amazing. i really want to do this.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
my lungs are so crappy. its frustrating. i went to the allergist and had about a million tests done... (six hours worth!) only for them to discover that they dont know whats wrong with me. great. i am getting increasingly more sensitive to chemicals, and its starting to freak me out a little. justin cant even use windex in the same room as me. on sunday, i cleaned a bunch and moved some furniture around, and the dust just about killed me. arg.
i started re-organizing our studio and moved some furniture into the trunk room... (ex-amys room, bill paying room, my studio) it is now my library slash walk in closet, and it is very cute and homey in there. there studio is still a pretty big wreck, but hopefully ill be able to tackle more of that next weekend.
i have decided that i officially need to find a part-time job. with the economy sucking as bad as it is, people are just not getting tattooed. im not too excited about it, but whatever, it will only be temporary.
my mom is coming next week and i am super excited!
as usual.... check my delicious for links and my flickr for lots and lots of pictures.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
imploding like a neutron star


never one to be out done or "half-ass" i have decided to commit myself whole-heartedly to my nervous breakdown. i understand that t may involve countless hours of not eating/sleeping, many incoherent drug/drink binges, and a lot of 4 am texting. i understand this and i am completely prepared.
i spoke tom tom today, and received a lovely image of his wound (just in time for halloween!). its insanely hard. even though i know that he is doing way better than was ever expected, its still insanely hard. i feel pretty stupid and naive to think that this whole situation would pass by without having any negative impact on me. its kind of funny. tragedy. is this tragedy? or am i just dramatic?
the only thing i am capable of doing right now is scanning images. i scanned for hours and hours last night. til my eye burned and fingers were raw (not really). it kind of reminds me of a kid i went to school with... i didnt know him personally, he was a grad, i was an unergrad, blah blah... but after his mother died he could no longer paint, so he gessoed and sanded canvases. i guess the only difference is that he was making beautiful art and i am wasting time. at least i have a distraction.
sigh.
Monday, October 20, 2008
"what would tim burton do?"





i am currently manning the helm of nerd central (aka an octagonal 1970's faux bois laminate table with matching chairs, 17" PC with scanner, and my macbook.) i cant remember if i mentioned this or not, but last week justin and i hit the vintage book jackpot, and i am in the slow (very, very, slow) process of scanning in my favorite illustrations to share with my various flickr groups.
to be honest... i am pretty exhausted, and by "pretty exhausted" i mean, "really exhausted". the funny thing is i am always lecturing one of my friends (you know who you are) that he needs to be there for himself first in order to be healthy and happy and available to help other people. i guess its really easy to plow through everyday and half ignore all the problems, drama, and hurt around you. i guess i always manage to fill the family role as "tough guy" and emotional shut down during the crisis, take care of everyone else, until i crash and burn. i quite honestly didnt even realize until i crashed, how unhealthy all my behaviors have been.... i guess i am finally ready to admit that i have been silently falling apart.
when i returned back from maine in august i started to have a lot of respiratory problems...AGAIN. only this time, instead of my standard two to three weeks of bronchitis, i have become asthmatic (or something). i have been in a constant fight with my landlord for the past three months about water damage and mice "dirt" that i have found in the walls and believe to be the source of my breathing issues. first i was told that the three foot crack in my ceiling and constant littering debris were "cosmetic" then i was told that the mice feces i discovered in my water heater/furnace closet were "my responsibility to clean up" and eventually i had to call the city inspector. i had to get shot up with steroids and buy a special doo-hickey that measures the amount of air that i can get out of my lungs. i have been put on two different inhalers, advair and albuterol, the advair costs $189 to refill (with insurance) so once its out, i wont be refilling it.
my birthday came and went, and was barely acknowledged. i was really in no position to celebrate, too sick, too depressed.
the steroids make me shaky and anxious and then drastically crash... the crashes are getting better as my tolerance to the drugs increases. i had to cancel lots and lots of tattoos, because you cant tattoo if you cant breathe, or draw a straight line.
over the past two weeks my asthma has deteriorated into a chronic cough, which is enough to make me want to pound my head into a wall. sometimes the coughing gets so out of control that i start to gag myself, no bueno.
i am going to see an allergist this week (it has taken me a month to get an appt), and of course, my coughing seems to have subsided over the past two days. i hope i am completely healthy and normal by the time i have my appt, in order to thoroughly compress the fact that no one seems to know whats wrong with me.
on a lighter note, my brother, as some of you know, has a brain tumor. he had most of it surgically removed on wednesday and has already been discharged from the hospital in pittsburg and made his way back to richmond. initially the doctors were expecting him to need two operations and have to stay in the hospital for two weeks. he was in surgery for ten hours and the doctors were able to move almost all of the tumor, except for some of it that was wrapped around his vocal chords... oh yeah, i guess i shouldve mentioned that tom, being the overachiever that he is, couldnt have just a regular ol' tumor. no, his was located at the bottom of his cerebellum and all tangles up in his nerves. they were very afraid that he would lose his ability to swallow and suffer from facial paralysis. he is already completely deaf in his left ear, and will probably never be able to dj again. the good news is that tom was awake and sitting up the morning after his surgery, he was able to talk, smile, stick his tongue out, walk down the hall and up some stairs. he was taken out of ICU that day and kept in a regular ward for one extra day before being released. once he starts feeling better he will start radiation therapy, which will hopefully kill that son-of-a-b "herman" forever. plus, i think that tom should rock an amazing mullet wig after he loses his hair.
on top of all of this i have been stuck in the middle of other personal drama which has been insanely stressful and hard.
amy leaves next week and i will be sad to see her go, even if it means regaining my space and order and structure, it has been nice to have a friend here for awhile. not just a "what are you doing friday night" text/bar friend, but a real friend friend. someone to watch cheesy, embarrassing, girl tv with, and go shopping with, and eat expensive cheese with. i have had SO much fun doing crazy tattoos on her, and will be looking for a replacement ASAP.
....and to top everything else off... the economy sucks, tattoos are for people with disposable incomes, and no one seems to have any of that right now. i was even talking to one of my bartender friends about it last night, i thought that maybe people were tipping less because of the economy, but she said that people are drinking less... or maybe drinking the same amount, just at home?
anyway.... i think this has been the LONGEST POST IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD....
so why not add a little more....
i got a little crazy on saturday night at the cous cous 90's dance party, as far as i remember i was on pretty decent behavior aside from molesting half the female attendants breasts, but they didnt seem to mind. if however, i am wrong, and i got fresh with your bosoms and you were offended, i am truly sorry, had i not ingested many, many, xanax, and many, many PBR's, i would have been able to control myself.... on a positive note, i was SO happy to hang with tess, ana, jess, michael otley, nato, and my fav. dance partner nick bryant... you all put the pearl in my oyster... oh yeah, and the always lovely carolyn, whom i just met, but is super cute... and all the other cute girls i met-slash-molested, please re-introduce yourselves when i am slightly more sober. oh yeah, i was insanely stoked to run into joey at empire, and parker! i look forward to trying to catch up with them in the future.
on a final note.... the much anticipated eleventh season of "the simpsons" finally released after over a year. yay!
<3
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008

im tired. my health hasn't been great, my asthma seems to be getting worse, and i feel like im coughing constantly... my back muscles are getting bigger. ha. things have been pretty stressful. tom gets his first brain surgery tomorrow and then the second on thursday or friday.
on a positive note... i finally got the first part of my sleeve finished and it looks amazing. also, i have been really happy with the tattoos that ive been doing lately. justin and i went thrifting on monday and had super-fun-lucky time. i got a ridiculous amount of vintage science and reference books, and am excited to start ripping them off.
umm... i cant remember if i mentioned this or not, but.... i am in the process of working on building my clientele and portfolio so i am doing some free tattoos. the logistics are on my myspace blog. please hit me up with any questions/concerns. i am really serious about doing this.
oh.... and we are having a super spooktacular halloween party at tattoo 702 on halloween, starting at about 8ish. i have decorated, and i see no reason for anyone to not stop by for t least 5 minutes.
a.













