okay. so its been a day or two since i have updated. things have been hectic... stressful. however, i have managed to cross some MAJOR things off my to do list, which is AMAZING. do we need this stress in order to motivate us? fear is the greatest motivator.
i think at some point recently i realized that i was not in control of my own decisions, and it really started to eat at me. i think that people have a tendency to take advantage of you when they realize that you need them more than they need you. is this vague? i will try to clarify later... maybe.

i guess im just in spring cleaning mode. i let things pile up all around me until i am so stressed i cant see. i have started to clear things up. dumb stuff like re-loading all my mp3's back into itunes, and getting my cpr, first aid, and blood borne pathogens certifications. flossing.... literally and metaphorically. having WAY too many social obligations.

anyway... this is boring me.