i am SO tired. so many odd tasks seemed to go undone during my illness. sigh.

i went to my first gym orientation earlier, informative.
went to target to exchange some work out clothes (why do they run so damn big?)
cleaned
did countless loads of laundry
bought groceries

tired.

turtley died today (not pictured). its amazing how something that you barely have contact with could cause such heartache. justin and i inherited turtley from his little brother timmy, almost a year ago. he was a tiny little guy, maybe an inch and a half in length. i noticed a week ago that his shell seemed soft and fragile, so i started running the lamp for longer hours. i have been sick for the past couple of weeks, so i didn't pay much attention to the tank. last night i noticed that he was laying in the corner of the tank, with his head stretched out and laying on ground. he looked sick and barely moved when i poked at him. his shell had become extremely soft. i googled "sick turtle", and determined that it was a lack of uv rays and proper nutrition that led to his illness. i placed him in a separate impromptu tank with very little water on the ledge of my window sill. this morning he had moved down from the rock i had given him, and had eaten a little pellet food. i decided that this must be a good sign, even though i wasnt too happy abut the fact that he was sitting in the water with that soft shell. justin and i then dismantled our 55 gallon terrarium and relocated it to our trunk room (which is like a small office), directly next to a sunny window. after we completed the move i was going to put turtley back in the tank, and when i picked him up, he was lifeless.

we buried turtley in my downstairs neighbors front garden (sorry, laura).

i feel like such a bad mom. i wish i would have done more research on his particular breed of turtle, or kept the tank a little cleaner. i wish i could've saved him.

in response to our loss, justin and i have erected the "turtley memorial terrarium" which is basically our old aquarium, but with a new faux rock waterfall filter, live plants, water conditioner, moss, and new buffet style food (with krill and nasty shrimp).


in other news....
i am still on the hunt for the perfect bedroom set, and to be honest i am leaning towards the "MALM" set on IKEA. i know IKEA is cheap, but its also versatile and they have lots of different pieces for each set and the sets come in a variety of colors. Plus, i'm probably not going to want this bedroom set forever anyway. i think i am going to have to make a little road trip to potomac mills and check it out in person. justin and i went to EQ3, west elm, pottery barn, and crate and barrel today, and didn't see anything that either of us really liked.

i joined the gym today. exciting. if anyone goes to golds in the fan, we should work out together. aimee and i are going to "body flow" (cheesy name) class tomorrow, and to get myself extra inspired to start working out, i bought a really cute outfit... too bad i realized when i got home that it doesn't match my sneakers!

oh... we are obsessed with the showtime series "the tudors".

kit is coming in town tomorrow.

lars is helping me do some work to my bike tomorrow... riser bars, bmx kiddie grips, and new tubes.

"real simple: weddings" appears to be the best wedding magazine i have bought to date. it has limited ads and really focuses on planning, with easy to read lists.

my ring still hasn't made it to Virginia. (sad face) i called today to check on it, and was told that it was running late and wouldn't go out until thursday. which means that justins tatsoul chair will arrive before my ring... even though it was ordered nearly two weeks after. sigh. i am tired of telling people that i am getting married, only to have them glance down at my bare hand. boo.

alright, its late and i've had and emotionally exhausting day.

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this video is super cute..... i really want to make zombie puppets now.

They have lots of sweet stuff on the zune arts site.....zune

as seen on kitsune noir

to bad the bums will just end up peeing onit

(they ruin everything)

so sometimes i am really fascinated by teenagers, i mean, we all remember being young a dumb... but i am SO thankful that i grew up pre-digital age. before camera phones and digital video and every personal aspect of your life being posted on the internet.

with that said i came across this website recently when i was searching for a cute new haircut.... bascially its a social networking slash photo hosting site, similar to photobucket or flickr, but for "emo" teens. the part that i found entertaining was the section devoted to "emo girls making out" and "emo boys making out" (at least these kids are practicing tolerance!). i guess the part that i find shocking is that they are posting this stuff on the internet for everyone on the planet to see, teachers, bosses, family, and creepy perverted dudes.

anyway, i had basically forgotten about that site til i came across some "emo porn" blog today, and saw all these video clips from you tube of emo girls making out.... its like, a culturally phenom. or something. so of course, i had to do a youtube search...


proliferation

i kind of feel guilty posting this.... but by rational side tells me its totally anthropological and interesting.

i just remembered how excited i am for SATC!!!

awesome

will everyone hate me if this becomes a wedding blog?

nobody reads this crap anyway....

so i haven't been to work in a week and a half, which basically means that my days are spent drinking prescription cough syrup (syzurp) and doing online wedding planning.... which may seem a little obsessive considering my wedding isn't for 15 months, but there are SO many damn variables... for example: we are getting married in maine, outside, which leaves us with a very small window of time to operate within, because the weather in maine is only tolerable (esp. for virginians) for about three months. so we decided on the first week of august, however, i then realized that the weather in the caribbean is super shitty and rainy in august. also, i want my wedding to be slightly off-season, so i can get a better deal on a honeymoon. so now i either need to change the wedding date to september, which might be colder than i will like, or change our honeymoon location.


this is SO cute. i want an old school b-boy dance off at my wedding.

offbeat bride is super cute.... and there is even an entire section on tattooed brides!

so i have done a good job at secret keeping, as of late, but i can no longer hide it.... IM GETTING ENGAGED, BITCHES. we ordered the ring yesterday, and im super excited. its basically this ring, but with an upgraded rock and setting. (platinum, wa-what)
i really have to thank kari so much for helping me with all the diamond info.... and for letting me steal her idea of getting a black one. i went into this without a damn clue about buying diamonds, and it really made me realize why young girls get into learning and planning weddings WAY before they get engaged. i kind of regret NEVER picking up a wedding magazine earlier, it would have made the whole process a lot easier.... thankfully, kari has had a subscription to martha stewart weddings since she was 12, and has been very helpful.

in other black diamond news...
carmen electra just recieved a black diamond from her fiance, and he actually bought the ring from my solitaire which has an AMAZING selection of black diamonds, and are very reasonably priced.

here is an awesome article about black diamonds. it has been theorized that black diamonds come from space!

i was initially feeling very overwhelmed with the prospect of planning my wedding (even though i have 15 months!) but then amy told me that she made her mom do all the boring planning stuff, and that her mom was super stoked about, and that made me feel better about it.

where should i register? suggestions?

also... im pretty sure i found my dress. i posted pictures of it in my flickr. DONT SHOW JUSTIN!

in other news... (involving people who are SO much cooler than me)
my awesome friends aimee and stacey got engaged last night! they are the cutest couple EVER (besides me and justin).... and i am totally voting for them for prom queens. stacey drove ALL the way from florida last night to surprise aimee and pop the question. i felt VERY special to be included in the surprise. we will all be at cous cous tonight to celebrate.

also....
my good friend from high school ALSO got engaged. melissa and her boyfriend have been together for SEVEN years, and he totally surprised her. That is the cutest shit ever.

jeez... all these surprise engagements make me secretly wish that i wasn't such a control freak, and let justin surprise me.... who am i kidding? if i waited on him, i would be an old dried up hag before i ever got a rock.

i swear, every time i eat rice, i think it expands and then i get so full i want to die.

another one of my friends got engaged today.... how exciting. my friend melissa has been dating the same guy for seven years, and he totally surprised her with a ring. i kind of wish my engagement was going to be a surprise, but i am too much of a control freak... and i couldnt have handled an ugly ring. (im a bad person)

im starting to feel a little better. my lungs are still crappy, and i get tired really quickly. Getting sick has definitely put a bunch of things on hold, which is annoying to me. i have been really wanting to go sign up with the gym, and do things around the house. blah. i really want to change some things, but as of right now, i am stagnating. in bed. fan on.

get gym membership.
buy groceries.
cook more. stop eating out.
save money.
read books.

it feels like lately as quickly as money comes in, its going directly back out. i sold my car and gave Justin $500 for a Tatsoul chair.... (lame name) They are supposed to be the new hottness as far as tattoo chairs go.... and we are also planning something BIG, more on that later.

anyway, i know there has been a serious lack of links and pictures lately. i lost all of my bookmarks during the crash. I am also pretty sure I lost all of my music too. lame. i havent even dealt with digging out my external to see what was backed up.

i need to get a cute little list book.

dress shopping with amy tonight. exciting.

okay. im going to go die now.

i dont even know how its possible to be this sick. its really frustrating. parts of me seem to be getting better, but other parts are worse. i have been coughing less, but my head and sinuses really hurt.

it was nice talking to amy on the phone tonight. hopefully she will actually move to rva, and not prove herself to be totally full of shit.
i feel like im really sick of people right now, perhaps more annoyed than even my general annoyance. i deleted about half of my "friends" off myspace, which felt good... liberating? i see no reason to have people on my friends-list that i not only never converse with, but really thoroughly dislike. im kind of over it, social networking. its kind of pointless and takes up too much of my time.

four eyed monsters has FINALLY updated with four new episodes, but dont get too excited because they are each only 10-15 minutes long, and they are only putting episode 13 on the new IFC DVD. So, basically, if you've already bought a DVD, youre going to have to buy another DVD in order to watch episode 13. lame.

arg. i just want to feel better and get back to drawing and tattooing.

a.

i feel cruddy. i have been completely useless for the past week, and its really annoying. i havent been to work all week, technically.... i keep going in in the morning, and then feeling like crap and going home. this blog is really boring. i have exciting things to say, but not yet... therefore, i have nothing to say.

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